Cant figure it out.

Took out the tagboard, figured that it looks kinda ugly there, used haloscan instead. :) its the Click Here! after each post. leave a comment thank you. [:

My blog's been pretty stagnant, havent got much time to blog bout major things, not even listing the minor things that happen in everyday life. hm i think it would be like this for quite a while. till when i have ample time to blog and do crap, i'll be either in school or at home mugging away! work's getting more serious now, after the talk Ms Tan gave us.

Mass on Friday wasnt too bad, though it was abit screwed too. nontheless, i tried singing every song. lol last year in IJ, i'll really miss it soon. see, its already about to be Febuary.

My netball life has been pretty disappointing too. no motivation, no nothing. actually thought that it would be better, but nope. it seems to be getting worse ): everyone's far ahead, while im lagging. :'( there's no bond YET, gona push so much more harder and then we can be happy again. :) maybe this is the worst time? im not sure. too much going on, yet im like not doing anything about it. *thinks*

Havent really thought of the future, about what i really wna do. and suddenly, i dont feel like dropping anymore. i hope my decision doesnt make me regret.

Whoa my life sounds quite depressing eh? okays since when it isnt. this is not right.

I want to be a happy girl. :)

New Year makes me think a lot, cos suddenly.. my messed up life has a break. too much time to think.

So in love with this song, gona change to it real soon. <3
( typed this out myself.! )

Lost Without You --> Delta Goodrem

I Know I Can Be A Little Stubborn At Times
A Little Righteous And Proud
I Just Want To Find A Way To Compromise
Cos I Believe That We Can Work Things Out

I Thought I Had All The Answers
Never Giving In
But Baby Since You've Gone
I Admit That I Was Wrong

All I Know Is I'm Lost Without You
I'm Not Gona Lie
How Am I Gona Be Strong Without You
I Need You By My Side
If We Ever Said That We'll Never Be Together
And If We Ended With Goodbye
Dont Know What I'll Do
I'm Lost Without You


I Keep Trying To Find My Way
But All I Know Is
I'm Lost Without You
I Keep Trying To Face The Day
Lost Without You

How Am I Ever Gona Get Rid Of These Blues
Baby I'm So Lonely All The Time
Everywhere I Go I Get So Confused
You're The Only Thing That Is On My Mind

Oh My Bed's So Cold At Night
I Miss You More Each Day
Only You Can Make It Right
No I'm Not Too Proud To Say

If I Could Only Hold You Now
Make The Pain Just Go Away
Cant Stop The Tears From Running Down My Face

I Keep Trying To Find My Way
All I Know Is
I'm Lost Without You


Random.

<3

I'll take the chances.

Life now is a screwed bitch. >:(

Basically i think i cant be blogging as often as i can during the holidays and last year.. :'( the feelings sucks actually, dont being able to surf the net for tons of hours and adding crap onto the blog. aha. everything is being focused on studies and netball.. though i put in effort, i seem to be getting no result at all. we really need to bond for the netball team. we need to work together and pull through it. as for studies, i think i should just take a step at a time.. you see, i dont sleep in class anymore.! :) now thats something really to be proud of.. HAHAH.

Training nowadays are really shit, partly maybe because of the moody weather thats damn unpredictable, and the fact that she thinks we're not putting in the best effort, especially the sec 4s.?! she hates us luh. complain about our attitude and our timing for 2.4km. hell scolding yesterday, for about an hour.? by the way i havent forgive her yet okay.! for anyhow blaming me.. game today against Bartley was postponed to Friday, and we didnt really play well during the first part though out warmup wasnt slack.! asked us to think it through, and what she siad actually made some sense.. so now we have three consec days of training + game. from Tuesday alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the way to Friday. heh. good luck to us. *slaps forehead*

Everyone's adapting to the homeroom system already, quite okay just that sometimes the bell just wont ring so we'll be late for the next class.. heh and we can catually kinda eat in class.! [: lol but still going home ubberly late nowadays.. need to hang in there. sigh can this year pass just like that, *snaps fingers* ahh cant wait for self awareness.! :)

Cant think already, brain had suddenly stopped functioning at this very moment.. heh.

BYE PEOPLE! :D
HAPPY NEW YEAR.!!

*huggs*

Topshop girl.

HAPPY HARI RAYA! <3

I loooove it when it comes to festivals, we all get a break! :D lol isnt it great! get to celebrate and relax.. :)

Suppose to go out today, but i overslept cos my alarm just wont ring! >:( stupid phone such a spoiler, i woke up at the time we're suppose to meet. rushed out and met Violet, Ziyi, Liwen and Gladys.! =D man i love them soo sooooo much.! <3 watched The Family Stone and they all blamed me cos they said it was boring and they wanted to watch Narnia instead BUT I FOUND IT NICE OKAY! :D the ending was kinda funny and sweet.. heh. hawt! [: walked around and played the arcade, :) !! took the same bus home with Violet and we were talking bout OBS! HAHAH oh and did i mention i saw Wenjia today! [: really pretty, missed her loads!

School tomorrow fuck.

Okay im going to make it a point to blog almost every once in two days.. happy now miss? haha :D !

Wounds and liars, they're all coming back.

Now why am i so sad over ________.

I'm getting really addicted to Gold Digger.! <3

And still i have to carry a pain so heavy;
A past so deep.

2nd week of school.

Wtf i hate the shit weather nowadays.. keeps raining and its making me pissed. >:( like did the monsoon start late or smthg? who says we'll ever run out of water.. ugh getting all wet and cold isnt nice at all.. but at least we get to slack more for training, somehow loooove the rain when it comes to it! heh heh.

Saturday training was when coach really blowed and maybe this time it was really our fault.. but she didnt have to make some of us run 30 rounds round the 200m track that equals to 6K!!! she was ultra pissed, while some of us were quite pissed too.. like fuck. situation wasnt too good, had kinda a talk after training. everyone's stamina deproved greatly, and all of us were behind our 2.4 target for at least 30 seconds.. like wtf. ya la then keep blaming us and stuff.. whatever. kept saying like as if it was MY fault. ANYWAYS Jing twisted her knee when she slipped on the floor, hope she's okay.. cant train for three weeks ):

Then it was off to town wth Avis, Nat and Cel. ate, walked and waited for Nat to cut her hair. but Alvin was taking ages so me and Cel decided to go home first.. eyes were like closing! and i just wna say that.. i hate the stupid rain!

Tuition on Sunday, was kinda serious and solemn.. cos well our attitude wasnt really good enough. anyways he was kinda disppointed and pissed. left after that to meet my mum and sis to go shopping! :) heh man it was shiok. then had to go home to sleep early cos there's school or else i wont be able to wake up.. im missing the holidays!

Homecoming mass today was kinda fun, :) so many people came back to visit the new campus. ahah and we actually did chinese homework during chinese.. haha though half the time we were still talking loudly among ourselves.. heh.

And i dont really know why but i stupidly jumped into the puddle of mud while going home today! >:@ GRR now my socks and shoes are soaked in mud! had a hard time scrubbing my shoes just now.. ugh. now whats wrong with me.

Sorry but due to the unpredictable weather, ( or stagnant ) i actually had difficulty going out so i couldnt go for the study thinge.. ): but plan another one okay! [: watch study every week! *grins*

Realised that actually, i have already forgotten about it, and what keeps me back is just memories. just got smthg and suddenly i thought that maybe it was just meant to be.. just like that. perhaps changing would really be a better choice. since well.. the other moved on.


Ooh, i love this song. :)

Lifehouse --> Blind.

I was young
but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain
I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of my died
When I let you go

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of my died
When I let you go

I love butterflies.! :)

Oh no. i haven't been blogging, ( not even going online! ) for like, 4 days.! /: this is bad.. the first week has barely started yet im like shit busy with stuff and dunno what. i seem to be like getting out of my house like 9 in the morning but only going back home at about 9 at night.. not kidding. there's alot of things to do. AHH SOMEONE.

New school's alright, just that it was rather complicating. =S they did renovate most of the school, but they still left some bits and pieces here there. like the staircases, the pavement outside the classroom blahblah. and we had to play a rather dumb game, smthg like making us walk round the school and finding our classroom's and stuff.. i was lile totally L O S T.!! every classroom in different blocks actually looked the same.. so retarded my class is like on the fourth floor.. ): ah wells but the school actually looks quite nice. moorish architecture, ooh what a lovely name for it. :D

Monday's training was like worst in the history, seriously. :l the sun was at its peak, and i think we got to use the 2oom track earlier than the trackers, and we ran 12 rounds. =S ubberly madness we were all going insane because of the stupid fucking sun.! >:( ahhhh i really wanted to faint when we were doing triangle, and we had to run extra 6 rounds cos we missed training during the hols. say that we're all unfit blahblah, super dehyrated! it was like shittttttttttttttttt. :l but cant blame her la actually, heard our 1st game starts on the 18th!

Had a break on Wednesday and Thursday, but i spent the whole morning sleeping in :D heh went to school to do some CIP work, helping to shift equipments and stuff, damn dusty. nat's nosehair was white.! [: damn funny please! haha played for awhile, went to buy banner cloth ( but we didnt need to use it in the end! ) then went home at night.

Training on thursday. went to school to do banner but in the end we didnt need it. waste all my money.. anyways during 3/4 of the training it was raining quite heavily.. so we ran indoors instead of the stupid track.! :) everyone was screaming when it was raining luh. lol i loved the weather when it was raining! ah it was cold yet lovely. [: heh training wasnt that bad.. stayed back after that to hang up the other banner then it was short dinner with Ms Champion and Cel then it was home. oh met Lorraine on the bus too.. missed her. =D

Homeroom starts permanently today. it wasn't that bad, but i think i could still sleep during lessons.. haha and i think our teachers arent really that bad, except for some.. eck and i realised that Chinese O's will be happening really soon, so gotta mug hard for it! geese when ratata was talking about it, i actually kinda freaked out. its like, ON THE 29TH OF JUNE 2006!

I'm so not prepared.

Then stayed bcak for awhile in school, then it was out for dinner with Yow, Ali, Eun, Sam and her sister. :) yay i love them. <3

Packed up for this weekend, and all is work work WORK! school work and unfinished holiday work. heh and tuition, plus watch outing to study! haha man now i feel like sleeping, its my life. lol. :D

Training again tomrrow, and our lives will rotate among this routine till the tournaments ends, which is in about 4 months' time. hate trainings in the morning, >:@ rather have it in the afternoon though it takes up my whole day. open house for parents tomorrow and we're training at the rooftop! omfg like -_- if im really gona die, everyone please pray for me.

Guess i wont be going online for quite sometime again, maybe i'll drop by and blog again sometime soon. [:

Goodbye my lover.

It's another year again.

2005
This year has been great. :) really quite different from last year, made alot of friends, :) lots of exposures to the outside world too ( as in, really exposed. ). studies were terrible, somehow didnt have much mood and motivation to study. besides, the subjects were quite hard to grasp.

Got addicted to the game called pool, and playing it in town as often as thrice a week, and didnt stop till a few days before end years. less disciplined, going out pretty often, coming home later than usual. blahblah.

Netball has played a greater part in my life. :) 17s has been suchs great experience for me and has given me joys and laughter. thanks to all the team players out there, we should really gather soon. <3 love playing this sport. though the training is like shit.

Friends have played the greatest role. Made alot of friends out there, :D and having some weak friendships here and there. but i think all is going well now. [: some friends which i have gotten so close to within sucha short time adds on to alot of memories. getting closer to the team was an awesome thing, the juniors are really great. :) and im gona miss the seniors too, ):

Developed alot of moodswings, so crazy at one moment, and suddenly all down and depressed at dunno what. happenings here and there, thats where ALL the feelings come in. fuck it isn't nice. /: but i still think that whatever that happened happened for a reason. okays enough revealing of information.

So so much more to say but im lazy to type it out, just listing 5 major things. heh.

2006
Wonder how's it gona be like, O's this year. :'( everything's gona change too, for instance us moving into the new school campus, and have to adapt to the fucking homeroom thing. >:( damn i'm dreading it. netball court's at the third floor, shit hot and imagine the hundreds of stairs! other than that, this year would be study, study, STUDY. ):

Yay i got my Zen Neeon already.! =) fucking happy. heh couldnt get the green one though, didnt have that colour but im satisfied with my sliver! :) but it has some minor problems.. wtf i have to like go check how to clear them. took damn long to download the songs, and im only halfway.! :'( okay now guess how shit broke am i.

Saturday was like the most suay day everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. seriously, i was shit screwed. i took a whole day just to get the shoes that i wanted. met bestie and bear at Queensway to buy shoes, but we couldnt find the design. so we left then headed to Tiong Bahru since we saw the design there. bestie bought hers there and they didnt have my size. but the other store had but it was like 90+.. wtf they cheated money. >:( so we went to Jurong Point cos bestie said there had the shoes but in the end after searching in 3 shops it either they dont have the shoe, or they dont have the size. was damn sad la. so in the end i went alllllllllllllllllllllll the way back to Tiong Bahru but they say they lost the other side of the shoe.! >:( i was like, FUCK FUCK FUCK so in the end i bought another design that i didnt want. travelled from the South to the West! seriously, i wanted to dieeeeeeeeeee. but the next day they found the other side so i bought it -_-


Stayed over at Reena's later with Jod. :) was really sun counting down, but somehow the new year feeling wasnt there. ate and watched honey.. [: haha i loved the part when we hid from Jod, shit funny :D downloaded songs and went nuts singing and imitating the ah beng's ( no offence ) by speaking super singlish. lol slept at bout 5 close to 6.

I hate packing tables. What a way to start a Monday. packed up the cupboards first then went out to play bball with OBS people. 9 of us i think? we were super late. played for awhile then it rained. then soon we left and headed home to pack remaining stuff.

School's tomorrow. lesser time to blog and go out. hope i wont get lost or smthg. see everyone there tomorrow.! <3

Now its two.
First, sorry if you got the wrong meaning.. but, i dont want to implicate matters.
To the other one, i miss you.